did i know too much?
sometimes it's so much better not knowing everything.

does it hurt me?
was i being too much of a busybody?

things were starting to pick up and fall into place.
then i asked too much.
and it just hit me like a rock.

during the day i'm so cheery.
at night my mind starts to drift.
and the pain comes again.

so disappointed with myself.
i thought i had gotten over it.
didn't i?

sigh.
why not?

why can i?
why hadn't i got over it?

i feel so stupid.
so angry.
so disappointed.
heavy-hearted.

but somehow in the day.
my true emotions don't show.

i'm just hiding behind a mask.
shunning from reality.

things change.
people change.
the only thing constant is change.

why can't i just accept that?
why can't i just control my curiosity?

i just can't wait to go m'sia.
can't wait to get away from this familiar place.
can i bring you along?

thks for being there for me.
i appreciate that so much.

i'm gonna be independent.

i'm gonna forget.
it's a promise.

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yawns 11:10 PM
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